Obituary

With a very heavy heart I have to bear the loss of my 5 year old contact number. This number has been with me through thick and thin. It had seen the greatest and the worst times of my life so far. There are countless memories that I associate with this number.

It has been audience to heartbreaks; witness to miracles and a messenger of hope. It has heard so many sad news of not clearing any entrance examinations to a surprise of me cracking the DU M.Sc. Entrance. With this number I have fought with so many friends; planned beautiful surprises; counselled my dear friends; taught many people over the phone.

It would silently and patiently listen to my mindless chatter for hours. If I would be happy and call numerous people to share my excitement and there would be times; I would just scroll through entire contact list looking for someone to share my grief.

Those emotional cries and silent sobs; it has always stood by me in the toughest of times. Sitting silently it would help me revisit some beautiful moments; prompting me to read my inbox. It has been a witness to my endless waits to calls, messages, missed calls. The blink on the screen would light up my eyes; such was its magic.

Some-days I would give missed calls to friends and they would call me back; some-days friends would play the missed calls. And it has tolerated all my idiosyncrasies - from calculating how this number affects me according to numerology to how rhythmic it sounds on speaking this number; it has laughed at me for all these years.

Some-days I would just switch it off just to cut-off from the world; and secretly wish when I switch it on there would be missed calls and messages.Some-days it would buzz continuously congratulating me on getting admission; securing a job; celebrating birthdays to celebrating my engagement.

It has seen me grow; from the short tempered silly girl to a comparatively calm person who has just discovered the art of listening. It would hear me sing over the fun; flirt with my beloved; giving tech support to dad and family matter advises to mom and planning movie outings with bhai.

I would save all the beautiful quotes which I read somewhere in draft messages ; forward silly messages; irritate my friends while they were talking to girlfriends. There would be times when some-one would pick up my missed call and I would burn half a litre of my blood brooding over the loss of 50p for that call. And then there would be days; when I would say; give me a missed I'l call you back.

And there would be times when I would coordinate events over the phone; ordering people; planning and discussing management issues and leading a team of over 100 people.

It has seen me getting irritated with crank calls; to getting interviewed for job; gossiping endlessly with Neha; planning outings with friend; to getting all lovey-dovey (blush) .

This number has done it all :)

Yeah; may be I am getting to emotional but I have always been sensitive about things that have been loyal to me. They dont speak up; but you know they are there. There are somethings you dont want to change or give up and mobile number is one of them. 

Aah... and for the fact that why I killed it; I killed it for some greater good. Sorry my dear; but I am sure over these years you would have understood; somethings are better off in Letting Go; and you were one of those.

This post is a dedication to you because you were important to me and had become a part of my identity.

P.S. : Ok guys! there aint any sacrifice in giving up my number; all my family has moved to one network and so I move on (the greater good you see :) ) but I wish to make my old number feel special.

I have been thinking

1. We never grow up.We just learn to conceal our expressions and cover our emotions.

2. We are constantly trying to prove something to the world; and almost all the time that something is unknown.

3. Life teaches us lessons and when we have learnt them; it asks us to unlearn them.

4. Experience tells you what went wrong; but it doesn't guarantee that right move would always be right.

5. Any deviation from constant irks us; despite of knowing the fact that universal constant is change.

6. We know the world is full of problems and mine is so small as compared to the person next door. Yet we  believe that ours is the gravest.

7. We are selfish and each and every action of ours is motivated by benefit to our soul. In our hearts we know    its OK to work for self; yet we want to portray ourselves as "great".

8. We all have inflated balloon of EGO ; which strangely never deflates. And sometimes it grows so big that it blocks the vision of everything around us.

9. We always want things to be done our way. Take a look at your happy and sad moments. You were happy because what happened was what you wanted and you were sad because things didnt turn your way.

10. We always take credit of our success but responsibility of our failure lies on some-one else. Though we say otherwise but thats what we always think.

11. In our constant attempt to be different we push ourselves into situations that are complete opposite to what we want and being a slave to our false self beliefs we continue to torture ourselves.

12. We always want to be somebody else but inside us we always want somebody else to appreciate the real us.

13. They say if you have passion then you'll have success but we become passionate only when we taste success.

14. We all are shy people; we cultivate confidence and "frankness" as we grow up.

15. We want to be loved the way we want. We want to love the way we want. But we forget the other person also thinks the same way.

16. We never make sacrifices. We make choices. Leaving a job for your baby is not a sacrifice; you have made a choice of being with the baby rather than being with your job.

17. We need someone to believe in us when even we dont believe in ourselves.

18. No matter; how much we say I wont change for some-one; inside of us wants us to change for some-one.  Not because we are making a sacrifice; but because we always wanted to do that and were just looking for a reason.

19. All we need is comfort and not luxury. Luxury is what we own to make other people jealous and instill false pride in ourselves.

20. Today's comfort is tomorrow's need and yesterday's luxury.

21. Positive thinking brings good times; negative thinking brings bad times.

22. No matter how bad things seem; two things sail you through HOPE and FAITH.

23. LOVE is the only thing that motivates us.

24. We all make mistakes ; and knowing that we are humans; makes it easier for us to accept them.

25. Success and happiness is best enjoyed when its shared.

26. We all are lovers of beauty.

27. Each black has some white in it and each white has some black in it. 

28. Belief in Self and Belief in God is the same thing.

29. We fight the change initially but as we grow in that situation we embrace it and secretly find comfort in it.

30. We all our wonderful; from being a mere thought to a cell, to a life form and to being able to generate life we constantly create wonders.

Life is indeed strange... but in all its strangeness its beautiful :)